I have meant to comment on this ever since I first read it a couple of days ago... Kelly, it's so beautiful and tender, so full of self belief and yes, fear too. I hear and see the woman in your dream every time we talk, my friend 💛 (as for Candide, it gave me nightmares, rather than dreams, when I was in school 😅)
Kelly I love that you met your wise future self and that she offered you such beautiful words. And in writing this you have offered those words on to us, thank you. I too connect with the me that I am becoming through this healing journey, and I love the care and tenderness she offers when I pause and allow myself to listen. I noticed your use of the word recovery. On this path I have come to understand recovery as returning to our old baselines, to a place that is nowhere near spacious enough to hold all of our growth or the person we are becoming, the truest version of ourselves. I am no longer looking to recover, but to heal, to step into my authenticity, being at ease in the world and in my body and offering that sense of being to those around me. Maybe this resonates, maybe not. It took many many years for me to let go of the idea of returning to who I was pre ME/CFS, but once I did, it felt like anything and everything was possible. Glad to have found your writing, thank you for sharing as you do. Be well, Laura
Laura, thank you for taking the time to read and comment so generously. I really appreciate it. I love that you too are connecting with the unconditional love offered by the you that you are becoming on this healing journey, what a beautiful thing. I think you are right about the word recovery, there is no going back to a who we were before, it definitely isn't spacious enough. Thank you for highlighting that because a word that keeps landing with me is 'expansive'. At the same time, there is a yearning to connect with the essence of who I am and who I always have been and always will be on one level, a core wildness perhaps, an unshakeable truth of self perhaps but not the old ways of being in the world? Sorry to hear that you are living with chronic disease also, it has its moments that's for sure, but has also been a great teacher in so many ways. Kelly x
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I have meant to comment on this ever since I first read it a couple of days ago... Kelly, it's so beautiful and tender, so full of self belief and yes, fear too. I hear and see the woman in your dream every time we talk, my friend 💛 (as for Candide, it gave me nightmares, rather than dreams, when I was in school 😅)
Thanks so much, Annette. I really appreciate that and I do so love our chats xo
Also, I'm really curious about the mentor you found... xx
Kelly I love that you met your wise future self and that she offered you such beautiful words. And in writing this you have offered those words on to us, thank you. I too connect with the me that I am becoming through this healing journey, and I love the care and tenderness she offers when I pause and allow myself to listen. I noticed your use of the word recovery. On this path I have come to understand recovery as returning to our old baselines, to a place that is nowhere near spacious enough to hold all of our growth or the person we are becoming, the truest version of ourselves. I am no longer looking to recover, but to heal, to step into my authenticity, being at ease in the world and in my body and offering that sense of being to those around me. Maybe this resonates, maybe not. It took many many years for me to let go of the idea of returning to who I was pre ME/CFS, but once I did, it felt like anything and everything was possible. Glad to have found your writing, thank you for sharing as you do. Be well, Laura
Laura, thank you for taking the time to read and comment so generously. I really appreciate it. I love that you too are connecting with the unconditional love offered by the you that you are becoming on this healing journey, what a beautiful thing. I think you are right about the word recovery, there is no going back to a who we were before, it definitely isn't spacious enough. Thank you for highlighting that because a word that keeps landing with me is 'expansive'. At the same time, there is a yearning to connect with the essence of who I am and who I always have been and always will be on one level, a core wildness perhaps, an unshakeable truth of self perhaps but not the old ways of being in the world? Sorry to hear that you are living with chronic disease also, it has its moments that's for sure, but has also been a great teacher in so many ways. Kelly x
Beautiful words that I feel so deeply in my soul too. Thank you for sharing with us and can’t wait to read the book.
Thank you so much ❤️